dumbed down...

well i'm back home now! it seemed to take forever to get here... kelly and i didn't leave campus until about 4:15 and then we had to drop off fish at luke's house. that was pretty interesting. see i thought i knew how to get there, but apparently i didn't. by the time we had finally figured out where he lived... about half of the water in his tank was on my lamp. it was pretty funny, but you probably had to be there. don't hate me heather, but we became so desperate that i actually left him on some random doorstep until steve called back and said that he knew where luke lived. after all that was over we had to stop at wal-mart. that didn't take to long... we officially left watertown around 5:00. we had a good time. kelly and i listened to the salsa cd that she got me for christmas. probably the most interesting part of our trip was when we had to stop for gas. while we were there two guys driving by decided to take our picture! exciting stuff really. anywho... that was about it. we got to my house around 9:30 which isn't bad at all. well i'm gonna get going... sorry that's about as interesting as it gets for now.

Okay so here's the thing... since I'm not gonna be around very much any more, and since I'm absolutely horrible at keeping in contact... I thought I would try this blogging thing again. Now I know what you're thinking, but I'm going to do my very best to keep this up.
This post is mainly for my Maranatha friends... I want to briefly try to express to all of you just how much I love each and every one of you. All of you have meant so much to me. The Lord has used you guys to teach me more than I could have ever imagined. Some of you won't fully grasp this, but I want to thank you for being my family. I'll be praying for you guys.
Well... that's it for now. Hopefully this time I'll stick to it.

ok... i realize that i have waited exactly one month to write something, but in all honesty... i don't even feel like writing anything now. but somehow... in some freakish way... i feel like owe it to all of you. so here goes... the main question i've been getting is what's going on in my life. well not a whole lot. yes i am in minnesota (pretty much the greatest state ever), so i completely understand why everyone thinks i must be up to some super stuff. well not exactly... i have been busy... i've been spending a lot of time with my dad and brother. my father and i have been mortorcycling! and doing a bunch of outdoorsy stuff... it's been fun. my brother and i have just been catching up quite a bit. it's amazing to see how much he's grown up over the year. other than that, i've been hanging out with a bunch of old friends which has been huge a blessing. i will admit... i've spent way to much time organizing, categorizing, analyzing, prioritizing, colorizing... colorizing?... my suitcase for ironwood. yes i realize that i still have 2 weeks, but when it comes to this sort of thing... i'm a major perfectionist. first i started with writing it all down on paper. the next day i spent two hours on my computer typing it all out. of course i didn't JUST type it out. i first had to choose the appropriate font. i then organized everything into categories with special headings and all that stuff. not only does everything on the list have a category, but, let's use shirts for example. i don't just list how many shirts i'm taking with me, but what color the shirt is and which store it came from. it does get worse, but i'm choosing not to go into further detail. so i'm sure you have an idea as to why i start this process 2 weeks in advance. so uh... yeah that's what i've been up to... exciting i know. anywho i know that wasn't the most interesting post ever, but hey at least i posted :D

i don't know the technicals;
like which chords are which
and which go where.
but that's ok... that's not why i play.

i can't tell you when certain composers lived,
and why they wrote their music the way they did.
but that's ok... that's not why i play.

i might not impress you.
i might not play well.
but that's ok... that's not why i play.

i play because...
at times it is the only way i can pray.
when words are cluttered and shaded,
my heart cries out to Him in a different way.
her ivory keys reflect my innermost thoughts, feelings, and dreams.
when words have no weight, her sound let's my mind and soul escape to my Heavenly Father...
and that is why i play.

tonight i went to dellafield (who cares if i spelt that right) because that's not what matters. ok... sure she wasn't my 1969 Ford Mustang Fastback, midnight blue with white racing stripes, tan interior, and chrome detailing... but she was the first mustang i have ever had the honor and privilege to ride in! she was a deep green 1994... and she was incredible! the roar of the engine the lightning speed... it was pretty much the awesomest experience ever!!! ok i'm good now. i just really needed to express the overwhelming joy i now feel having ridden in that sweet sweet ride!

... yes i do realize that the picture is actually of a 1965 red mustang fastback, but it's a pretty wicked awesome picture.

tonight lisa decided that i should be a music major. i think that's a pretty good indication that i spend a little too much time in old main. well... i had been playing the piano for the same amount of time that she and joelle had been practicing. i agreed that i had been up there for quite a while, and decided that i needed to get rid of all the energy i had stored up. so i told the two of them that when they were done practicing, we were going for a walk or something. well... they liked the idea of running, but those of you who know me pretty well... correction... any of you who know me at all, know that running isn't really my thing... yeah... anywho... i suggested that we go for a walk. not some boring walk with no goal, but a walk to mullen's! great idea i know. nothing inspires me more than ice cream. so after my music nerd friends finished practicing, we went for our walk. it was rather interesting. i don't believe any of us girls will ever receive that many cat-calls in one night like that again! after passing a couple bars we finally reached our destination! MULLEN'S!!! joelle and i decided to split a pint of cookie dough and lisa had a scoop or so herself. overall i would say that is a great way to exercise. we set a goal, got some fresh air, and got to hear from some of the classiest men watertown has to offer.

hey!!! it's working agian! suprisingly, i actually missed posting... which doesn't make sense considering i never posted. anywho... a lot has happened lately, but like i've said before i hate writing! so we'll see how this goes...
God's definitely been teaching me to trust Him lately. trust has always been one of the most difficult things for me in my Christian walk. earlier i had given something over to the Lord. i had given it over to Him before it even existed. with many things in life, i like to have control. throughout my life i've seen the effects of what happens when i'm "in control", and i decided that for this situation i didn't want control. i wanted to see what God would do and how He would lead. i was surprised and excited to see the direction the Lord was leading me in. it honestly was not at all what i had expected. then it all changed. i had become comfortable and secure in the direction things were going, and then it all changed. it was a blessing that my first thought was - ok this is obviously God's will - but it has become more and more difficult to cling to that truth. it is a great encouragement though, to know that an all-powerful and all-knowing God is in control of everything that comes into our lives. it amazes me that God could care for me and the things that go on in my life when He is so mighty, and i'm... just me. to know that God has planned every step and every breath i have taken today and will take tomorrow is beyond description. He is my strength that carries me through each day.